Lebih baik syaitan yang dikenali?!

Semalam pada 21hb. September 2012, niat asal nak gi solat Juma'at di Masjid Sultan Haji Ahmad Shah di UIA Gombak tetapi memandangkan keluar dari rumah lambat, maka terpaksalah gak pergi bersolat di masjid yang berhampiran dengan rumah iaitu Masjid Al-Sharif di Kampung Simpang Tiga, Gombak. Ikutkan hati tak berkenan sebenarnya nak pergi solat Juma'at kat masjid ni sebab khatibnya berubah-rubah mengikut fahaman politik menyebabkan setiap isi khutbah divariasikan dengan elemen mengutuk, merendah-rendahkan negara & paling terasa hati bila doa khatib hanya untuk rakyat serta 'tanahair' Selangor, yang datang merantau hanya boleh dengar & aminkan jer (tak baik la kalau tak aminkan, depa pun hamba Allah gak yang sedang mencari keredhaan Allah... yang penting hati kita, biar niat sentiasa baik). Bagi yang jenis mudah mengantuk tu atau boleh berangan ke lain masa khatib baca khutbah, wallahualam... Saya ni takleh, memang sejak kecik dah terdidik bila khutbah jer kena dengar, kalau tak, solat Juma'at hancusss! Sebab tu saya senang bersolat di masjid UIA sebab semua khatib berkhutbah mengikut landasan sunnah & Al-Quran bagi membangkitkan perpaduan ummah serta memotivasi umat Islam ke arah yang lebih baik untuk keamanan dunia demi akhirat.  Jadi bila dengar takderlah kita cam tertampan menduga "La... mengata dah dia."

 

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

 

مُنِيبِينَ إِلَيْهِ وَاتَّقُوهُ وَأَقِيمُوا الصَّلَاةَ وَلَا تَكُونُوا مِنَ الْمُشْرِكِينَ

Hendaklah kamu (wahai Muhammad dan pengikut-pengikutmu) sentiasa rujuk kembali kepada Allah (dengan mengerjakan amal-amal bakti) serta bertaqwalah kamu kepadaNya; dan kerjakanlah sembahyang dengan betul sempurna; dan janganlah kamu menjadi dari mana-mana golongan orang musyrik

مِنَ الَّذِينَ فَرَّقُوا دِينَهُمْ وَكَانُوا شِيَعًا ۖ كُلُّ حِزْبٍ بِمَا لَدَيْهِمْ فَرِحُونَ

Iaitu orang-orang yang menjadikan fahaman ugama mereka berselisihan mengikut kecenderungan masing-masing serta mereka pula menjadi berpuak-puak; tiap-tiap puak bergembira dengan apa yang ada padanya (dari fahaman dan amalan yang terpesong itu).

(Surah Ar-Rum; 31-32)

 



p/s: Cuma pernahlah sekali (pengalaman saya) kat masjid UIA di semestar lepas, ada seorang khatib ni (kerajaan negeri hantar la kot sebab memang 100% berbahasa Melayu & khusus tentang kerajaan negeri) berkhutbah tentang keuntungan zakat negeri yang berjaya dikutip. Yakni khutbah yang sama pernah saya dengar beberapa bulan lampau di masjid Al-Ehsan, Bandar Kinrara semasa menetap di Bukit Jalil (cuma mungkin nilai keuntungan zakat jer berubah tapi teks ucapan semua lebih kurang sama, takleh lupalah!). Walau bagaimanapun tahun ni saya bayar zakat dengan Zakat Selangor (bayar kat mana yang dekat la, asalkan dah laksana tanggungjawab... insya-Allah).

Baiklah, berbalik kepada khutbah di Masjid Al-Sharif semalam, kalau ikutkan hati saya tak kuasa nak kongsi kes ni sebab pandai-pandai sendirilah fikir bagi siapa yang dengar khutbah tu. Tetapi saya dianugerahkan Allah bakat menulis, bila tak tertulis maka kerja lain cam berat jer nak buat (sebab hati melodak ingin mencatat di blog!). Mungkin ada hikmahnya Allah gerakkan saya bersolat di masjid tersebut semalam.

Khatib yang naik ke mimbar semalam adalah seorang anak muda & bagusnya kali ini tak cam kebanyakan khatib sebelumnya, dia membaca mengikut teks. Jadi selamatlah daripada tersalah kait ayat sampai menimbulkan bid'ah tak sengaja. Kita manusia adakalanya mudah tersasul bila bercakap spontan, apatah lagi bila dibelenggu rasa marah. 

Memang menarik khutbah semalam sebab mendedahkan tentang ajaran sesat 'Juruzon' yang pertama kali saya dengar. Teks khutbah tersebut telah disediakan oleh Jabatan Agama Islam Selangor/JAIS yang mendedahkan penemuan terbaru ajaran ni di Madrasah At Taqwa, Hulu Langat Selangor yang sebelum ni terkenal dengan kes tragedi tanah runtuh pada 21 Mei 2011 hingga mengorbankan 16 orang (termasuk anak-anak yatim).Teks penuh ucapan tersebut boleh didapati di SINI (<<--- sila klik).

Foto anak-anak Madrasah At Taqwa yang diambil beberapa ketika sebelum tragedi menimpa (menurut sumber: http://www.saifulazrul.net/v1/?tag=madrasah-at-taqwa)

Walaupun secara tersuratnya, isi khutbah ni secara tidak langsung menyiratkan bala yang menimpa madrasah & mengorbankan anak-anak yatim ini adalah amaran Allah, tetapi penekanan saya ialah kepada isi ucapan yang tidak terkandung dalam khutbah tersebut tetapi sengaja diselitkan oleh khatib dalam salah satu fasal langkah-langkah menjaga akidah. Khatib dengan sengaja (lebih kurang) menyebut... 

"Seperti ada la sorang tu yang pandai-pandai kata 'lebih baik syaitan yang kita kenal daripada malaikat yang kita tak kenal'. Suruh dia fahamkan dulu maksud surah Yassin."

Saya sudah maklumlah siapa 'dia' yang dimaksudkan oleh khatib (time tu saya terus geleng kepala & tersenyum sendiri lalu mengucap "astaghafirullah..."). Memandangkan saya ni pantang kalau khutbah berbaur politik (lagi-lagi bila sengaja nak merendahkan orang lain), jadi dengan rasa tak puashati saya balik ke rumah & buat penyelidikan sendiri; betulkah orang yang dimaksudkan berkata dengan niatnya memang tepat-tepat begitu atau sekadar niat berkias? Maka terjumpalah youtube ni...

Beliau berkata:

"People call us the devil, but we are the devil that people know. They are the angels that people don't know, but angels also can do a lot of wrong things."

Terjemahannya:

"Diorang panggil kita syaitan, tapi kita syaitan yang orang kenal. Diorang malaikat yang orang yang tak tau, tapi malaikat jugak boleh buat banyak kesalahan."

Jadi kesimpulan pada pandangan saya taktaulah dari mana datangnya perspektif mengatakan beliau menyebut ungkapan barat sebab terang-terang di sini beliau hanya mengulas pertuduhan orang mengatakan dia syaitan & beliau membalas yang menuduh beliau itu malaikat, namun menjelaskan tidak semua malaikat itu lolos daripada melakukan kesalahan. Kalau dispesifikasikan maksud kata-kata beliau di sini, jelas niat pertuturan beliau langsung tidak menjurus kepada ungkapan barat tersebut, cuma secara kebetulan berkait rapat dengan... 

"Better the devil you know (than the devil you don't)" 

Tapi biasalah, ada jenis manusia nak menagih kepercayaan orang kenalah putar belitkan kenyataan orang lain, bak kata beliau lagi...

"I can assure you that if they haven't win, they will make sure that they will continue to win by HOOK or by CROOK."

Terjemahannya:

"Saya boleh yakinkan kamu jika diorang tak menang, diorang akan pastikan diorang akan terus menang dengan segala daya upaya." 

Merujuk kepada ucapan beliau, yang memang jelas dipetik dari ungkapan barat ialah 'BY HOOK OR BY CROOK'.

Persoalan seterusnya, apakah yang khatib itu cuba maksudkan bila suruh rujuk surah Yasin untuk dikaitkan dengan ungkapan tersebut? Apa kaitan surah tersebut dengan kejadian syaitan & malaikat selain ia merupakan surah yang memberi peringatan kepada umat manusia akan kematian, kiamat & hari pengadilan. Wallahualam...

Kesimpulannya, meh la kita renungkan firman Allah dalam surah ini:

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

قُلْ أَعُوذُ بِرَبِّ النَّاسِ

Katakanlah (wahai Muhammad): "Aku berlindung kepada (Allah) Pemulihara sekalian manusia,

مَلِكِ النَّاسِ

Yang Menguasai sekalian manusia,
 

إِلَٰهِ النَّاسِ

 Tuhan yang berhak disembah oleh sekalian manusia,

مِن شَرِّ الْوَسْوَاسِ الْخَنَّاسِ

Dari kejahatan pembisik penghasut yang timbul tenggelam,

الَّذِي يُوَسْوِسُ فِي صُدُورِ النَّاسِ

Yang melemparkan bisikan dan hasutannya ke dalam hati manusia, 

مِنَ الْجِنَّةِ وَالنَّاسِ

(Iaitu pembisik dan penghasut) dari kalangan jin dan manusia."

Surah An-Nas (114; 1-6)

 

MY EQ TEST RESULT

What really matters for success, character, happiness and life long achievements is a definite set of emotional skills - your EQ - not just purely cognitive abilities that are measured by conventional IQ tests."

- Daniel Goleman, Ph.D.

Overall Results (score: 116 or 86%)

""Ability to recognize and understand basic emotions, and handle them productively."

My score on this assessment is reasonably good, but there is some room for improvement. Overall are fairly skilled at understanding and dealing with emotions.


Emotional Identification, Perception, and Expression (score: 77)

"Ability to characterize emotions in oneself and in others."

I am reasonably skilled when it comes to the core ability of identifying, perceiving and expressing emotions in myself and others. There is still, however, room for growth. Overall, my skills in this area of emotional intelligence aid me in the process of reading others, understanding how they feel, and effectively identifying my own emotions. These skills form the basis of my ability to relate to the emotions of others as well as well as my ability to understand myself.

• I am typically in tune with my emotions, and are able to identify my true feelings.
• I seem to have a solid understanding of my strengths and limitations. I am generally know what I am good at and where my struggle, and plan my life accordingly.
• I am comfortable dealing with emotions in general.
• I was relatively successful on the recognition of emotions aspect of the test; however, I seemed to have had some difficulty occasionally.

Emotional Facilitation of Thought (score: 83)

"Ability/Willingness to use feelings constructively; to let them guide you."

I am well aware of the guiding potential of my emotions, and usually tune in to my feelings as a means to direct my judgment, reasoning, and actions. Emotional Facilitation of Thought reflects the capacity to use emotions to figure out the aspects of a situation that don't lend themselves too easily to logic (e.g. when making decisions in ambiguous situations). When I use this internal guidance system in addition to cognitive processes, I am better able to view situations from different angles.

• I do not have a tendency to ruminate about my problems. Make sure however, that I give an issue in my life the thought and consideration it needs.
• I approach challenges, setbacks and obstacles to what I want proactively, and in a manner that is conducive to effective resolution.
• I am generally a positive, hopeful person.
• When evaluating an issue in my life, I seem to be someone who usually "feels my way" through a situation.
• I sometimes act in accordance with who I am and what I believe in, although this can be a challenge for me occasionally.

Emotional Understanding (score: 71)

"Ability to understand and analyze emotions, and solve emotional problems."

In order to take appropriate action in emotionally-charged situations, I need to be able to assess and analyze the complex and mixed emotions that come into play. Feelings affect thoughts and behavior, so a lack of emotional understanding can result in serious social missteps. This is not likely to happen to me very often. I seem to be reasonably capable of assessing and analyzing emotions in order to take appropriate action.

• I performed reasonably well on the emotional integration part of the test - there a few questions I seem to have struggled on. Likely I understand the profoundness of emotions, and how they play a role and impact everyday tasks in life. However, my depth of understanding could probably improve further.
• When it came to choosing the best approach someone should take to resolve a conflict, I sometimes chose a good approach, but my performance in this area was still not very good.
• I am a fairly empathetic person, and will try as much as possible to place myself in other people's shoes.
• When it comes to being socially insightful my skills are reasonably good. Continued improvement is suggested, however.

Emotional Management (score 79)

"Ability to take responsibility for one's emotions."

I am someone who usually takes responsibility for my emotions, although I could strive to be more consistent. Emotions are not always under my control - we feel what we feel. However, how we react to situations is under our control, which means that we need to take responsibility for our actions even in times when emotions are volatile. When I make it a point to manage my emotions, I am better able to deal with situations or people that tend to make me feel upset.

• I am typically able to control my impulses. On most occasions, I will consider the full consequences of my actions before doing something.
• I am typically very poised and in control of my emotions. I am usually able to self-monitor my thoughts and feelings, and regulate/adjust my behavior in response.
• I am quite resilient. I can pick myself up after experiencing a setback, perhaps more quickly than most others.
• I possess good coping skills. High-pressure, high-stress situations may not be the most ideal circumstances for me, but I will likely be able to cope.
• I am a self-motivated person. Most of the time, I am able to encourage and motivate myself to try hard and do my best.
• I am typically open to learning new things, although I may hesitate occasionally, perhaps if I feel the new skill or knowledge is particularly challenging.
• I am generally able to not "sweat the small stuff", although it can take effort at times to let go of minor problems or things that I can't change.
• I am usually able to adjust my social behavior to the situation. I can typically deal with a variety of social situations and personalities.
• I may have every intention of resolving conflict in the most ideal way, but it can sometimes be a challenge for me when an issue hits close to home. Overall, my personal approach to resolving conflict needs some improvement.

Ego Maturity (score 82)

"Attaining emotional growth and maturity."

The Ego Maturity scale refers to a group of traits that encompass emotional maturity - a level in which a person is fully comfortable with whom he/she is and possesses a strong and healthy sense of self. While this may be shaped by life experiences, as emotional intelligence develops and expands, so too will our ego mature. I have almost fully attained ego maturity. There may be an aspect or two of my personality that I can still develop and evolve, but overall, I have grown quite a bit as a person.

• I am comfortable asserting myself, and will do so on most occasions.
• I possess a healthy level of self-esteem. I believe that my opinions, skills and abilities have value and in general I have a positive view of myself.
• I seem to be quite content with my life. There are likely several aspects that I am happy with thus far.
• I strive to act independently, based on my own feelings and desires. I will rarely turn to others for input (unless it's for an objective opinion), or let them dictate what I should do.
• I am a fairly flexible person.

SUMMARY

Strengths

• I am emotionally self-aware
• I am aware of my strengths and weaknesses
• I am comfortable with emotions in general
• I am doing well in the area of Emotional Facilitation of Thought
• I approach to problem solving is conducive to resolution
• I have a positive mindset
• I am empathetic
• I possess good impulse control
• I show good self-control
• I show resilience/hardiness
• I possess healthy coping skills
• I am self-motivated
• I am able/willing to adapt my social skills to the circumstances around me
• I am assertive
• I have a healthy level of self-esteem
• I seem to be quite content
• I am able to act independently
• I am flexible

Potential Strengths

• I have a satisfactory emotional IQ level
• I am doing reasonably well in the area of Emotional Identification, Perception, and Expression
• I was sometimes able to recognize the emotions depicted on the test
• I do not ruminate excessively, which is good, but I also may not give things sufficient thought
• I sometimes act in accordance with my values
• I am doing reasonably well in the area of Emotional Understanding
• I performed relatively well on the emotional integration aspect of the test
• I am somewhat socially insightful
• I am doing reasonably well in the area of Emotional Management
• I am moderately driven towards further self-development
• I am sometimes able to let go/rise above minor issues

Limitations

• I did not always choose the most ideal form of resolution for others' conflict situations on the test
• The manner in which I would resolve conflict situations on the test were not always the most beneficial

Test taken at QUEENDOM 

The QUEENDOM definition of emotional intelligence is Mayer et al.'s (1999) definition:

"Emotional intelligence refers to an ability to recognize the meanings of emotions and their relationships, and to reason and problem-solve on the basis of them. Emotional intelligence is involved in the capacity to perceive emotions, assimilate emotion-related feelings, understand the information of those emotions, and manage them (p. 267). We chose to assess this construct using both self-report questions and ability questions."

TONE OF MY ANGER

When most of my colleagues irritated by my ‘stormy’ attitude towards my fellow writers, I rather just let my responsibilty take over my act automatically. Personal emotions? Swear to Allah, I wish I can keep the same ‘tone’ for each of the same mistakes they did but 10 same mistakes with the same ‘tone’? Am not stupid!

Each ‘tone’ shows different warning. The higher the tone, more danger the alert will be & I usually only have 3 ‘tone’. Extra 4 or 5, that’s my stupid ‘forgiving’ side. I screamed, I yelled, I banged & I fired them when they kept doing the same lousy mistakes at work. Sounds pathetic huh? It is! But trust me, I didn’t do it for no cause & not for my personal reasons. It’s about the magazine, the readers’ money & the company policy. But as usual, talks about human again…

'Some tend to popularize the worst side rather than the good side.'

So that’s where I belong to most of my colleagues. I don’t care & I don’t want to know if they care coz I care what I care. As far as I know, I didn’t do it because:

• I had a lot of job to do & I’m tired of it
• I hate the fellow employee
• Jealousy or tend to kill other people’s career
• Trying to show off my power like Hitler or Qin Shi Huang
• I’m having psychological error… or manic depression.

For your information am doing it because of my responsibilty towards:

• Things that I am working on
• The readers
• My directors
• My fellow colleagues that’s related to my deadline’s process.
• The company policies
• My writers long term work period &...
• LOOKING FOR THE RIGHT CANDIDATE FOR MY REPLACEMENT!!!

I'M NOT BUILT WITH RAM

Well... being GEMPAK’s editor for 10 years really makes me a better person, though not far better when compared to a real leader, but at least I can deal with so many types of attitude without problem. Or so I should say… almost with a fire distinguisher ready in my hand.

GEMPAK is a fun magazine to work with. But dealing with quality, accuracy & writers inability to proceed with the most honest write up… that’s daily headache! Trust me, I wish I can just copy my ideology & paste it on them. Just like how I cut & paste items in computer system. When we thought computer brain is complicated, I think human brain is far more complicated… we’ve got to deal with their personal emotions.

Because most human prefer their personal emotions to surpass their logic.

I AM 'PRETTY' LOUD?!

A friend said I'm pretty loud recently & a boss said my words now are so sensitive (I think he meant loud also...). My love think I'm starting to practice 'sharp-shooting' words (I bet that means loud too!).

P/S: The only person who yet not saying anything about my changing behavior is the one I am holding the ring because... someone knows me better than anyone who said they know me better (get my point?!).

First of all, I was (past tense!) the type of son who obeyed my mother's advices. There were advices from her made me a little bit too nice until whatever I do is for the sake of 'helping them, not me!'. But I promised myself, as long as I live I will never try to hurt her feeling. 

But yes I admit, there were moments I just had to disagree with her but not to the extend where she can hear words saying "Your son is a bastard!" just because I kicked their 60 years old grandpa's face for molesting a 6 years old boy (example only! The worse I can give & dream of doing it). 

That was why when my mother was still walking on this world, I had to make sure she got at least 80% from what she wanted from me... her pride. Now it is time to take control of my own PRIDE... (sing Whitney) "On my own..."

Though She is now rest in peace with Allah, as long I am her son (she brought a part of me with her), I will continue making her proud (this time my way!) & praying for her journey there so she will be given a place in heaven. I will continue wishing for others to pray for her too & I know those people who love her, will also pray for her. We will all pray for our mother (yesss!).

Anyway, back to my topic. Yes I agree! I'm 'pretty' loud & it naturally happens since my mother passed away.

When I used to be someone:

1) Always worry about the matter of other people compared to mine

Now: You want my extra efforts? Pay for it dumb ass! Pay doesn't mean using cash only, but for work things... pay cash or check please & with the right amount so I can be happy doing your work. Because I know, you're making profit with it sooner or later. Oh! Now I think of profit? Who doesn't but I'm not greedy because when you offer me RM1 million but I can't smell RM1 million or even half of it yet, I rather take a risk for ignoring it. If you are interested in my work to be publish worldwide but yet not my copyright, I rather let my Malaysian have the copyright first & stay at my own 'home' before you can respect where I stand. TQ!

2) Staying polite non responsive

Now: If you're saying bad things to me, I am gonna politely make sure you live in world's hell till you die! No... I'm not going to be Jigsaw (like in the movie series 'SAW') because I respect others more than I respect you. So does that ring a bell to your conscious mind? (Justin... sing for them please!) "What comes around goes around..."

3) Stay calm even there's a man is poking my ass

Now: You gonna get a bloody slap from me (though I almost want to do it but end up smiling... take my words "Next time you gonna get a bloody punch!"), no matter what age or gender (unless you're my special someone). So don't make such joke on me, because I'm not your bitch!

4) Always thinking about making money

Now: Not really into it! There are so many ways to make money nowadays. Even sitting on the street showing your dick also can gain money (I can say a lot more than your monthly salary! Hell no to me... I rather work at 7-Eleven). So for me, do things that I LOVE DOING GENEROUSLY and will GENEROUSLY GENERATE MONEY.

5) Always forgive & forget

Now: I still forgive but I will not forget. You can ask my bestfriends even they already said sorry (forgiven already so bye!). After this, I'll just pity their fate even if they get crush by a lorry like how they pity my fate. Thing is from now on, I'll remember bad things people had done to me but the people... forgotten! Sounds very daring, right? Trust me, I don't hunger for fake friendship because I don't fake friendship. I know who are my bestfriends & my busy life with creative world will find me new friends. So you want to be daring with me? Wait till you see mine.

6) Play stupid in order not to offend, humiliate or show lots of respect for other people's stupidity

Now: Hell no you can make me feel like a fool, unless I fool myself. From now on be ready to be shouted angrily by me in front of public. If ladies have mood-swing during their menstrual period, I have extra mood swing during my 'men'-strual period! Yeap! I don't mind acting like a fool anymore & hell no I will let you go alive out of the crowd once you trigger my anger. If you're a lady, I am gonna pull your hair (if none, your big tits will do!). If you're a man, make sure your head (up & above) well protected before you get contusion.

7) I'll do it even I don't have to do it

Now: I'll do it if I WANT to do it. See the difference? Don't threaten me by saying "It's your responsibility!". Dude! I know my responsibility & I'll do it if you know how to respect what I'm gonna do. There are so many ways of respecting what I'm gonna do & one of it is not by telling what I know best.

8) Planning for future

Now: I feel stupid whenever I look forward for my future. I don't know why but whenever I start planning for my future, my today will not end up satisfying & I will start feel guilty for going to sleep. So, I'll do what's best for today depend on my energy, psychology & interest. Whatever comes today, I'll let Him see the course for me & I'll decide what's best for me... Insya-Allah.

9) I'll suffer for breaking your heart unintentionally

Now: (pushing the red button) Teeettttt! Playing nice & giving doesn't mean I'm deeply in love. Yeap... I'm always being emotionally misjudge by others in so many different ways when it comes to LOVE AFFAIR. When I'm in love with you but misjudge me for not making commitment, you're just making excuse to dump me. So... bye for now (you won't have the second chance once I meet someone else). If you're ruining yourself just because I broke your heart... (push the red button again) Teeettttt! Forgive me, I've already made the first introduction but you're making demands.

10) Try not to be so gay

Now: I'm so gay (traditional meaning you fool!)!!! Being fat, straight face & bad mood most of the time is not my thang! Allah give me so many choices of being happy or unhappy. So I choose... be happy even if it's unhappy. If u ask me if I'm so gay (modern meaning you jerk!), let me warn you something... don't make me turn you STRAIGHT TO BOTTOM (get what I mean?)! I don't promote my sexual PRACTICE (read carefully... I'm not saying SEXUAL INTEREST ok!) to others & I don't like to make you imagine that's how I have sex. But I can't stop you from making assumption(s). Take my words because (read loudly please!) I REALLY CAN TURN YOU STRAIGHT TO BOTTOM (this makes me a sinner? You too!), so stop wondering I fuck or be fuck by guy (Chopp! Don't euuu me please... coz your hypocrite expression makes me wanna puke!). Just because you haven't... (sing it Mariah!) "Touch my body..." doesn't mean you have the right to be (sing it again Mariah!) "Obsessed..." by my private life just because I don't announce my love interest. Get a life will ya!

CONCLUSION

These are not the attitudes to SUCCESS? No, the before attitudes are not the attitudes what you so call SUCCESS. That's why now I can see clearly what is SUCCESS does mean, when I'm the money & louder (not in rude ways ok!) among the crowds. Take it or leave me alone. Yehaaaa!

THE MANIAC SYSTEM OF DEADLINE!

Since I'm busy with my light novel project, I've handed my full responsibility of magazine's deadline to my fellow sub-editors. To my surprise, they have done such a great job in handling the whole process from contents to deadline management. Much better than when I was in deadline. My job now is just monitoring them & try to help if there's problem arises.

Today, something came up. My director told me GEMPAK's team (writers) is late of deadline. But when I check their schedule, all the articles already submitted to studio. When director asked why studio is late, the traffic controller said not enough man power. Sound pissed off, so further investigation was made. Suddenly the traffic controller came over to me & said I should have controlled the clients' content by marketing much earlier than usual because the department put the blame on my writers for being late of doing the write up.

As for me, this is always what happened in publishing... blaming on others to cover what suppose not to be covered. But the real solution is get the things done & later work things out again to minimize the same problem from being repeated! Why? U'll never know who is going to be late again & still others will get the blame because one magazine effected each & everyone who worked on it.

It does sound irritated but you got to deal with it even you plan for an escape. Because in this life... we've got to work together no matter what, though you like it or not. At the end of the day, I dig out the real problem & take it to solution. Though I'm gonna here sigh here & there (because some have to stay back), at least we still can solve the matter. Lesson learned again... I move on & so are others.

At the end of the day, you gonna laugh about it because the funny part is... everyone still working out the same process again & still there are mistakes arise. Who never make mistakes? Only you to yourself...? U think! ^_^

FRESHIE A BRAG

Seriously! I just can't take it when it comes to attitude. I may have certain run of attitudes, but these... really pissed me:

• Think he/she is such an important, reliable & valuable staff in the office when the fact is... what do u know abt the job that u do when u keep complaining abt salary, time management & running out of deadlines?! Can u please find a way to solve it without pointing at others?! D'oh!!! Working here more than 4 years, making magazines with no value outbreak but surprisingly selling, condemning your own product, what else?!!! U need to get out from your comfort area once a while to find a refreshment, test the market & test yourself! Stop being irritating because u get irritated. U already becoming rashes!

• Sending novels to me, adaptation idea, got paid RM3000, then complained "I don't like when u change my work.". Errr? Change your work?! Dude!~ I'm an editor, my job is to make sure the things that u wrote doesn't have enormous spelling mistakes, names & boring ending! I'm paid by my directors to make sure readers love the novel. Don't tell me u need your purity to be judge by the audience eventhough they throw u rotten eggs eh?! Ego instead! Thing is, I don't mind if u send me beautiful writing; less spelling error, every name (especially peculiar one!) matched in every chapter & I need to find if there is any negative issues in it. So... please... a novel or 2 doesn't make u big. So stop pretending u are A list novelist like A. Samad Said will ya! Point is I'm the editor while it's your name on the book cover. Readers will say it was your work, nobody care for the editor. Be reasonable! So... stop complaining for the factor that u not yet accomplish but yet u have the idea.

Enough said...

STOP VALUE YOURSELF BY EXPECTING OTHERS TO PRAISE YOU LIKE THE BEST. THING IS, BEING THE BEST IS NOT U TO JUDGE, IT IS THEM THE VIEWERS. ARE YOU GOOD ENOUGH FOR YOURSELF? NOT ENOUGH COZ U NEED OTHERS FOR U TO BE GOOD.